I know I would have made you feel alive
I know I would have made you cry
I would have made you laugh
I would have made you angry
I would have made you smile a million times and more
I wish I could be here forever
I wish I could stay to see your face in the morning everyday
So many things I wish I would have done
But little did I know
How little I have left to be with you
I’ve waited what seemed like an eternity
It’ll hurt when it’s time to say goodbye
Funny all the things we thought were important
Funny when we’re having breakfast in the middle of the day
No fucks given
So hold me because I’m scared
I’m scared tomorrow won’t come
For me at least
Babe I’m so sorry
I pray everyday that when I’m gone
You’ll find someone to hold you in their arms
To love you unconditionally the way I have
To take my place beside you in our bed
Don’t come with me when I go
Stay because you are life’s greatest gift
They need you baby
I’ll be waiting for you
1. Are you frightened by your partner’s temper?
2. Are you afraid to disagree with your partner?
3. Are you constantly apologizing for your partner’s behavior, especially when he/she has treated you badly?
4. Do you have to justify every place you go, everything you do, or every person you see just to avoid your partner’s anger?
5. Does your partner constantly put you down and then tell you that they love you?
6. Have you ever been hit, kicked, shoved or had things thrown at you?
7. Do you not see family/friends or do things because of your partner’s jealousy?
8. Have you been forced into having sex when you didn’t want to?
9. Are you afraid to break up with your partner because they threatened
to hurt you or themselves?
If you answered yes to any of these questions….
-You can end the relationship and choose not to see your partner
-Get help from someone you trust, preferably an adult
-Go to your counseling center at school
-Call 1-800-572-SAFE (7233) for referral to a local support program in your area
Myths About Dating Relationships:
-A guy needs to be in control of the relationship
-A girl is to blame when a guy hits her
-It’s understandable to hit her – maybe next time she’ll learn not to make me angry
-I love him. I’m the only one who can help him
-Some girls ask for it – that’s why they stay
-I shouldn’t have nagged him. It was my fault he got angry
-When a guy gets angry, he can’t help it. He’s uncontrollable.
-I was drunk. I didn’t know what I was doing
-She hit me first and I hit her back. Everybody does it sometimes.
-If she really loved him, she could make him change.
-If I could figure out what sets him off and not do it, maybe he could stop.
Where the fuck are you?
Where have you been?
Bitch I’m waiting for you
Stop playing these silly games
Just meet me where I am
Why couldn’t you be the one?
I seriously thought it was you
And then you went ahead and crumbled my love for you in your hands
How could you do that to me?
I have no idea how to erase you from my memories
I still dream about you
You were my first real love
What a terrible experience that was
I have yet to fall in love like that again
Have you?
Have you not found someone to put up with all your bullshit yet?
I doubt it
At least not like I did
Do you still dream about me?
I bet you curse my name every day
There’s a barrier between us
You put that there
It wasn’t me baby
What do you have left to say?
I wonder if I’ll ever happen to come across you
I wonder how you’d look at me
Would you have eyes of repentance?
Would you even look at me?
Would you say “I know I fucked up.”
I drowned all my dreams with those bottles
Laying in my bed
Looking at the ceiling
It could have been so perfect
Oh sweet baby
I’m sorry
I’m sorry for you
This bitch
We met in your shadows
I wanted to see your light
I wanted you without all your flaws
I found him
I was wrong
I don’t want you at all
I never want to feel like this again
But I know I’m lying
Exactly 3 years later
That wish came true
How painful was it
To have you remembered
How terrible is it that I can’t forget you
How disgusting is it
That I still wish the best for you
How sick of me to wish you well
I must be my own sadist
Or am I really channeling my Inner Mother Teresa
You have marked me
I have marked you
We both lost
I never lose anymore
Fuck You
I just wanted to heal you
She was so beautiful I cried
My heart ached
The tear fell down my face
I longed to hold her
I yearned to grab her
To make her mine
To breathe her in
Take in her orgasmic essence
Get lost in her
I can feel her heart
It’s not just those beautiful curves
Or that sweet naughty smile
Or the way she bites her lip
It’s how clueless she is to how beautiful I find her
Its how much space she has in her heart
To love, nurture, and forgive all who have harmed her
To carry on with caution but no regrets
I love the way her hips sway underneath the moonlight
I love the way she gets lost in her head
I wonder what she thinks about
I know she’s of substance
God is she deep
If I dive
I know I’m gone forever
I’ll never come back for air
I love her so much I almost want to hurt her
I want to make her feel alive
I want to make her cry
I want to make her laugh
It’s like I woke up from this cloud I’ve been living in
Sometimes I just want to crawl in her
She can see through me
And it scares me
She has a way of capturing your heart in mysterious ways
She is so silent sometimes
Yet it’s so soothing
Will she run away if I get on my knees
She’s wild and roams free
I don’t want to tame her but I want her so bad
Butterflies
This uneasiness that I’ll never see her again
So I’ll just love her the way she wants me to love her
She’ll never be captured
She’ll never be owned
The butterfly dancing in the sky
Forever dancing
I’ve never seen a woman so wild
She’s beautiful
It hurts
Its the ones you love
Or the ones you once made love to
The people who say they care
The people who say they won’t judge
Its the people you trust
Or who you once trusted
The people who betray you
The people who insult you
The people who belittle you
Yet I
I still trust
I still love
I open my heart
I open my arms
Surrendering
To love
To hurt
To wisdom
When you come into my life
My heart is your land
Do with it as you shall
But remember
You reap what you sow
Even when you run my land barren
And desert me…
The rain eventually comes to bring me back to life
No matter what you do
I stay standing
You’ve come from my womb
I have birthed you
I have nurtured you
I have loved you
From birth you will spend the rest of your life
Trying to reach my womb once again
You seek my comfort
Let your head rest on my humble bosom
You seek my nurturing
Let your pains wash away with the pleasure of my body
I have let you into my sanctuary
When you brought home food
I gave you a meal in return
When you bought a house
I gave you a loving home to return to
When you planted seeds
I gave you more life
I let you carry out your legacy for generations
He has plowed my soil
With all the love I have given & everything I have multiplied for you
You yet refuse to admit you fear me
You have built the world in your favor
You have shackled my spirituality…my nature
You have worked your whole life to own me and my beautiful sisters
You have marked me as your land, your territory
You have worked to conquer me..to control us
You can’t seem to embrace the power of my sexuality
Throughout the ages
You have sacrificed me
You have stoned me to death
You have burned me as a witch
You have divorced me
You have separated me from my children
Why do you shame thus which you desire so much?
You see me only as you want me to be
Yet I am so much more
I hear your muttered insults
Those directed towards my insatiable exotic sisters
Those directed to myself
Yet you dream of us
Yet you desire us
Yet you LUST for us
For you desire not just I…but all the beauties I have birthed
So let us be free…the way we have let you be free without stigma
You hate me and my daughters for we have refused to be your slaves
Why the electrified high-security razor-wire fence to contain a kitty-cat?
My dear, the strength of the drive determines the force required to suppress it.
My pussy makes the world go round
You simply can’t forget me
I want to lose sight of my fingers as I comb through your hair
Lose all sense of time when I look into your eyes
To lose my ego as Im baptized in your gracious love
Oh Dear..My Sweet Dark Caramel
Bathe me in your honey over and over again
Mesmerized by your skin glistening under moonlight
Let us vanish in the depths of the woods
Howl like we own the night
You are the caramel to my macchiato
I have relinquished all my power
Just to love you
I’m not your slave…
Yet there are moments when I want to be
I’m not your whore…
Yet there are moments when I want you to treat me as such
I’m not your sanctuary
Though I wish all I could offer you is peace
She struggles with her identity as a woman
I hate that I want you…
And now my dear…
I need you for reasons people can’t quite grasp
I write
When the hearts cries & when it sings in joy
Baby you got the world…
But at what price?
I want to get down on my knees
I want to serve you
How could I betray myself like that?
To let a man conquer me
To love you so much
I blessed you with my darkest abyss
I let you plant seeds
For I am mother…
One with the earth
We reap what we sow
Awakening of Ann 