There I lay uncovered for all to see
Baring my soul
Baring my body
As all the eyes peered down from above
With love
Without judgement
In this beautiful sacred space
Something I felt like was surgery of some spiritual nature
My eyes fluttered as fast as my heart was beating
As a knot grew in my throat
And even then I still blossomed
With my sweet nectar
I’ll never forget how we recognized the Divine
Gazing into the depths of eachother’s souls
1. Are you frightened by your partner’s temper?
2. Are you afraid to disagree with your partner?
3. Are you constantly apologizing for your partner’s behavior, especially when he/she has treated you badly?
4. Do you have to justify every place you go, everything you do, or every person you see just to avoid your partner’s anger?
5. Does your partner constantly put you down and then tell you that they love you?
6. Have you ever been hit, kicked, shoved or had things thrown at you?
7. Do you not see family/friends or do things because of your partner’s jealousy?
8. Have you been forced into having sex when you didn’t want to?
9. Are you afraid to break up with your partner because they threatened
to hurt you or themselves?
If you answered yes to any of these questions….
-You can end the relationship and choose not to see your partner
-Get help from someone you trust, preferably an adult
-Go to your counseling center at school
-Call 1-800-572-SAFE (7233) for referral to a local support program in your area
Myths About Dating Relationships:
-A guy needs to be in control of the relationship
-A girl is to blame when a guy hits her
-It’s understandable to hit her – maybe next time she’ll learn not to make me angry
-I love him. I’m the only one who can help him
-Some girls ask for it – that’s why they stay
-I shouldn’t have nagged him. It was my fault he got angry
-When a guy gets angry, he can’t help it. He’s uncontrollable.
-I was drunk. I didn’t know what I was doing
-She hit me first and I hit her back. Everybody does it sometimes.
-If she really loved him, she could make him change.
-If I could figure out what sets him off and not do it, maybe he could stop.
This world
People are cruel
People are mean
People are sick
They’re all sick in the head one way or another
Why would I ever want to bring children in this world?
Selfish people want families
They want what they want
Not knowing how much pain they’re causing…
Then they raise monsters…
That are just like them
Mirror Images
And as much as we try to stop it from happening…
The monster still lies in your reflection
You are them
You carry the sickness of humanity
Show me one good pure soul
And I’ll rest my case
Its not who you are when things are good
But who you are when things get bad
What is it that you would like to know?
My life…
Who I am?
Because you know so little of me
You want to know more than just my name
But do you really?
You ask me what people have done to me
And you insist…
Do we really have to have this conversation now?
I’ve been used against my will
He had a thrust inside me without my permission
Is that what you want to hear?
That I’ve been beaten down to the floor
Humiliated to the point where you feel that you feel lower than dirt
Manipulated into doing very bad things…
This is my life
But I don’t talk about it
I don’t cry for me…I cry for her…the soul of that young girl who died
I don’t want it to seem like I’m complaining
Because Id rather have this misfortune than the ones others have
My childhood you say…
Imagine a bird in a cage…
You tricked me
You didn’t want to know all that did you?
Well now you do
And now you wish that you never asked.
Numb
Still can’t believe it
The man I thought I loved
The man I used to adore
The man I used to look up to
The man I used to respect
Pleaded for my death
The very man I let inside me
The man I worshipped
The man I cared for
So I pulled out the knife from the kitchen drawer
Proceeded to cut myself but I was hesitant
Then I slowly slid it across my wrist
I felt adrenaline at first
Then I felt the pain
Then I thought of my family
i immediately put the knife down
I didn’t bleed at first so i payed no attention
I happened to look down at my wrist later & I was in shock
Im thinking I certainly must wear long sleeves to the family dinner
I can’t let them see what I did to myself over a man
How can you say that to someone you claim you love
The minute i heard those words
It was over for me
Within a few hours I was already in the arms of another man
He’s called over a hundred times since
I understand people say things when they are angry
But that of all things?
i understand I made a silly mistake
My heart is so numb
I can’t even take anymore
I feel alive again
I wish I could lay my head on you
And call you home
I’m at peace
When I feel your tender touch
Words can’t even express
The love I have for you
How did I get to that point…
To be so numb
Just going through the motions
Killing myself softly inside
Oh how I wish I could go back in time
Praying to God to be forgiven
I wish I believed in God back then
I wish fear was instilled
I was never cold
I used to care
I’m fighting a war against myself
Just take me back
Back to the person I once was
The young smart girl full of hope
Full of innocence
Full of life
Bring that girl back to me
Please
I glanced over
And I saw your face
My heart instantly dropped
I couldn’t believe I was seeing your handsome face
A shock took over me
You looked so beautiful
Your hair fluttering in the wind
The fall leaves falling from the trees
Your cosmopolitan walk
I had to hide before you saw me
I couldn’t let you see me like this
Imperfect
But how I wish I could have walked in your direction
How sweet would it have been to feel your loving embrace
How sweet would it have been to hold your dear face
Ive searched for someone like you for so long
Would I ever meet someone like you again?
And then my mind wanders to a dark place
As I gaze out into the midnight sky
I pray to God our paths will cross again
When the time is right
Its been so long
Yet I still think of you
Ive been digging in graveyards
Ive been searching all over
For You
I am a hopeless romantic
Yet I never let you see that side of me
I fear losing you forever
But I used to fear you the most
Only to realize now that you’re gone
You were the one I should have held close
I’m dying to see you again
Dying to touch you again
I’m dying to hold you
Dying for you to hold me
I’ve never longed for a man like this before
I’ll be laying in bed alone tonight…
With a drink in hand
Awakening of Ann 