Awakening of Ann

Welcome to my soul & mind



Her slavery…

I thought I was free…

When I fled from an abusive long term relationship

I thought I was free…

When I ran away from a mother who ran a household like a country under dictatorship

I thought I was free…

When I went against the rules of society

I thought I was free…

When I became myself

Until I realized…

Instead of becoming a slave to a lover, a mother, myself, or to society

I am slaved to a living

I searched

I gazed upon the stars for hours & hours

Searching for answers

I looked for Psychics

to see into the many possibilities of the future

I looked into my dreams

And tried to decipher their meaning

Because I remember You

I remember your face in my Dreams

Not Knowing that someday we shall meet

I fought Destiny

I felt it in the Depths of my Soul

Curse the Ego

For “I” was too afraid to embrace Destiny

To feel the thorns Love comes with

Because Now…

I’m looking for You or anyone Like You ❤


Escaping the dark depths of reality & immersing myself between pages of enlightenment

An orgasm of an epiphany

Carefully calculating the destination of the ejaculation of my thoughts…

Into the stratosphere of human consciousness…

Giving life to unspoken words & unkept promises

The mind then drifts away back to a graveyard…

Collecting the shards of dreams that never experienced manifestation

Looking behind the present…

Watching the verge of climax before heartbreak occurs..


Or simply diving into dark depths of a different reality?

She’s Dangerous

She could break your heart
Like no one ever has before
Look into the depths of your soul
like she owns you
Walk on by
like she never met you
After making love endlessly
She can turn off her emotions
Like a switch
Make you question your very existence
Bring you on the verge of alcoholism
She hurts so bad
But shell never show it
To you she’s a cool cat
Too cool to fall in love
Little do you know
She’s begging for someone to conquer her
To melt her frostbitten heart
But she just cant seem to let you
Too scared to open the door
But to you
You think she just doesn’t care
And you’ll try to move on
Intoxicating yourself every night
Not knowing she hates herself
For not letting you see
The vulnerable baby she really is
Wishing she could go back in time
To appreciate your love all over again

A woman…

She is strong…not in a masculine way

But realizes the power that resides within her femininity

She is gracious & humble

Never afraid of being wrong

She is alluring

There is a certain atmosphere she creates whenever she walks into a room

She is beautiful

Even looking beyond her bosom & curves…

She is radiant with love

Because she has learned self acceptance

She is & always will be


Left with no answers

Left with a broken heart

Not knowing why

A damsel in distress

The knight in armor caused havoc

Then one day he came back for her

But she was no longer the same

Since she had to fight battles & win wars all by herself

Left with scars

Left with no tears

Nothing left but cold bitterness

Experienced realms of this world she could have never dreamed of in her nightmares

And he was never there…

Occasionally reappeared but always seemed to disappear

Now you want her to be a part of a kingdom you created

Why now?

Where were you when I needed you?

When I laid all by myself in a river of sorrow…

I can only wish you the best

A kingdom I could never be a part of

Afraid you’ll disappear tomorrow

Thinking of You

The wind is blowing..

It’s whistling & howling

I can hear the crinkle of colorful leaves as I walk

I can hear your voice in the wind

I can almost smell your sweet perfume lingering somewhere in the air

Yet I can’t find you

It’s getting cold…

And I miss you

All I can think about is your sweet caresses

All I want is to kiss you again

It’s getting colder…

I need you here

Sweet Angel

Come back to me before winter comes…

I started writing…

To return to my original self

To be self aware of my emotions

To get things off my chest

To fall in love with words again

To immerse myself into a different world

To share my thoughts ..dark or light

To be part of a beautiful community

I started writing…

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From the grips of your deathly reality

From the limits you have placed on my soul & mind

From the crushing of my dreams

From the tears of Pure Darkness

From that sly crooked smile

I am constantly running from You

I can’t stop to catch my breath

Not even for a second

… & I can’t look back

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