Not everything that glimmers & glistens is gold
We all fall for some sort of trap at some point in our lives
That girl lies through her teeth
Captivating her “prey” with those alluring mesmerizing green eyes
She bats away her fluffy long lashes
She twirls her long blacker than midnight hair with her finger
Her silhouette showing ever so perfectly as she gazes out into the sleepless night
She turns and her hips start swaying towards him
She bites her lip and looks as if she’s hungry for something
She grabs him from behind & kisses his neck…
Leaving red lipstick marks on the collar of his white shirt
With a soft pull at the silky lace her gown slides off her body
Her skin glows & glistens in the dark by candlelight
Her warm color of caramel seeps into the bed
As the pale color of white follows
The moans, howls, and yelps fill the empty air
Sooner rather than later
Gasps for air are heard
The bedroom door swings wide open
A man appears with tears streaming down his face
A rose in one hand & a gun pointing at her in the other
He looks towards the frail poor excuse of a man & shoots him
Eve screams as the killer comes towards her
She glances at the man who is no longer breathing or moving
Wishing she had been shot first
Eve finally recognizes the killer as one of the many men she had seen
Before she could speak the tape went over her mouth
He decided to hit her until she went unconscious
then sliced her open through her chest
The shattered pieces of her heart fell out to his surprise
He couldn’t even imagine that she had a heart to begin with
And he collapsed with the shattered pieces & the blood smeared all over
He weeped and moaned like a child
He had murdered a lost broken soul
A soul so hurt & broken & pushed to limits beyond her understanding
A soul that began destroying herself and everyone who walked into her life
She subconsciously sought revenge for every man who had harmed her
Yet she pushed away every good soul that came her way
In fear of losing them & the feeling that she wasn’t worthy
His weeping eventually came to an end and thought he heard something in the closet
I don’t know how I had stayed so quiet this entire time until now
I had watched all this through a crack in the door
He slid the door open & saw me cornered up in a ball
The man took his bloody finger & touched my lips
Signaling to stay silent & then walked away dropping the gun
That night left me confused for the rest of my life
How can we be so cruel & cold
How is it that some of us die before we are dead
Why is that some of us have to suffer so much
Why is that some of us who are given everything end up with nothing
Yet those who are given nothing end up with everything
…
Eventually after much therapy I moved on with my life
Years later my husband came home with a lipstick stain on his shirt late one evening
I looked the other way & pretended I didn’t notice as he quickly tried to hide it
I sat on our living room couch and I went completely numb
I gave this man my heart, my body, my soul, my everything
I lived my life for the home we built & the family we created
I tried examining our marriage and tried to pinpoint what I had done wrong
When I knew I was the best wife, friend, and mother I could have been
I remembered the beautiful woman who was murdered in front me during my childhood
I wondered if he was with a similar type of woman
I knew I would never grow up to be as captivating as she was
So I consciously tried to make it up in as many other ways as I possibly could
I must have failed
I failed
Again I thought … How are we so cruel
The only reason I kept living was to experience real love & to be loved
I had played a different role in the same story
And that was the night I died before I died
Awakening of Ann 