You’ve come from my womb
I have birthed you
I have nurtured you
I have loved you
From birth you will spend the rest of your life
Trying to reach my womb once again
You seek my comfort
Let your head rest on my humble bosom
You seek my nurturing
Let your pains wash away with the pleasure of my body
I have let you into my sanctuary
When you brought home food
I gave you a meal in return
When you bought a house
I gave you a loving home to return to
When you planted seeds
I gave you more life
I let you carry out your legacy for generations
He has plowed my soil
With all the love I have given & everything I have multiplied for you
You yet refuse to admit you fear me
You have built the world in your favor
You have shackled my spirituality…my nature
You have worked your whole life to own me and my beautiful sisters
You have marked me as your land, your territory
You have worked to conquer me..to control us
You can’t seem to embrace the power of my sexuality
Throughout the ages
You have sacrificed me
You have stoned me to death
You have burned me as a witch
You have divorced me
You have separated me from my children
Why do you shame thus which you desire so much?
You see me only as you want me to be
Yet I am so much more
I hear your muttered insults
Those directed towards my insatiable exotic sisters
Those directed to myself
Yet you dream of us
Yet you desire us
Yet you LUST for us
For you desire not just I…but all the beauties I have birthed
So let us be free…the way we have let you be free without stigma
You hate me and my daughters for we have refused to be your slaves
Why the electrified high-security razor-wire fence to contain a kitty-cat?
My dear, the strength of the drive determines the force required to suppress it.
My pussy makes the world go round
You simply can’t forget me
We have those nights where we remember
A glass of wine in hand
As the tears roll down your face
I wish I could take all the pain away
I wish I could end your suffering..
I felt this way once before
But never to this extent
The soul feels empty & hollow
The heart is full of rage & resentment
Hatred
How awful it is to carry this in one’s heart
It’s a deadly poison that has robbed me of life
I don’t even recognize the person staring back at me in the mirror
Stranger
I can’t imagine having lived with this all my life…
I feel alive again
I wish I could lay my head on you
And call you home
I’m at peace
When I feel your tender touch
Words can’t even express
The love I have for you
How did I get to that point…
To be so numb
Just going through the motions
Killing myself softly inside
Oh how I wish I could go back in time
Praying to God to be forgiven
I wish I believed in God back then
I wish fear was instilled
I was never cold
I used to care
I’m fighting a war against myself
Just take me back
Back to the person I once was
The young smart girl full of hope
Full of innocence
Full of life
Bring that girl back to me
Please
I glanced over
And I saw your face
My heart instantly dropped
I couldn’t believe I was seeing your handsome face
A shock took over me
You looked so beautiful
Your hair fluttering in the wind
The fall leaves falling from the trees
Your cosmopolitan walk
I had to hide before you saw me
I couldn’t let you see me like this
Imperfect
But how I wish I could have walked in your direction
How sweet would it have been to feel your loving embrace
How sweet would it have been to hold your dear face
Ive searched for someone like you for so long
Would I ever meet someone like you again?
And then my mind wanders to a dark place
As I gaze out into the midnight sky
I pray to God our paths will cross again
When the time is right
Its been so long
Yet I still think of you
Ive been digging in graveyards
Ive been searching all over
For You
I am a hopeless romantic
Yet I never let you see that side of me
I fear losing you forever
But I used to fear you the most
Only to realize now that you’re gone
You were the one I should have held close
I’m dying to see you again
Dying to touch you again
I’m dying to hold you
Dying for you to hold me
I’ve never longed for a man like this before
I’ll be laying in bed alone tonight…
With a drink in hand
I remember the last time I had to be this strong…
Strong enough to cut someone out my life
Someone I fell so deeply in love
Yet again I was blinded by love
I will not stand for toxic relationships anymore
I wont put up with all hurtful words that burn my soul
I won’t put up with being hurt physically
I will dedicate myself to being the strongest woman I can be
It all starts with not looking back
I will never trust someone again like I once did
There are things I will never share…
I must say that I’ve never been so emotionally hurt in my life ‘
I’ve never had someone tear me apart like so , my dreams, my home, my family
And as I lay on the floor, as the tears roll down
I know I’ve had my part in this as well
At least I had a glimpse of what love can be
Being so lost in someone that you forget about all their flaws
I had dreams..dreams of bearing children
Dreams of tending to our seeds & welcoming you home into my arms
I had dreams of building an empire with you
Yet you slashed through and destroyed them with the darkness in your heart
To the point where I no longer felt comfortable around you
To point where I constantly lived on edge
Feeling so vulnerable…so violated
I can’t let anyone touch me anymore
I don’t want anyone near me anymore
I don’t even want anyone to glance in my direction
I live in fear
I live in anxiety
Something I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy
Intimacy has been taken from me…something I yearned for so long
I never walked away for being too busy…I walked away because I saw your true colors
I walked away because I constantly feared you
How could I live the rest of my life fearing someone I loved
And regardless of all the hurt in which you brought…I still wish you well
I wish you happiness, success, and so much more
I’ve rolled the dice more than once
I kept playing no matter how many times I lost
I gambled for love
Fate rolled me a broken heart
The taste is so bitter
So sweet
What a price we pay for love
It all starts out so beautiful
Yet ends so horribly at times
For once I am tired of gambling
Tired of rolling the dice
Tired of disappointment
Tired of talking
These gambling days are over
Awakening of Ann 