I want to lose sight of my fingers as I comb through your hair
Lose all sense of time when I look into your eyes
To lose my ego as Im baptized in your gracious love
Oh Dear..My Sweet Dark Caramel
Bathe me in your honey over and over again
Mesmerized by your skin glistening under moonlight
Let us vanish in the depths of the woods
Howl like we own the night
You are the caramel to my macchiato
I have relinquished all my power
Just to love you
I used to look at depressed people
With confusion
Not understanding why
How could someone be so depressed?
How could someone cry so much?
How could someone wallow in their pain for so long?
It is truly pathetic
But now I find myself on the other side
Drowning in my own salty tears
I have become someone I ridiculed
There is so much to be grateful for
So much had gone so right
Everything feels like it’s crashing
Like a plane high in the sky
heading full speed downwards
I just have no idea how I got here
I never saw this coming
I didn’t think I would be crashing like this again
I said goodbye to the sad lonely girl long ago
Embracing all the good things in life
Appreciating the most simple things in life
Yet the darkness seeped back into my soul
Capturing me with it’s deathly grip
Now I am dreaming I am satan himself
Wandering aimlessly through life
Hoping & Praying to God
I’ll stumble onto where I belong
Stumble onto my Purpose
Something I used to think I had all figured out
I was a brave one
Brave & Stubborn & Determined
Nothing was getting in my way
It was either my way or the highway
I overcame every obstacle
Anything I wanted…
I always went in & got it
I was confident & focused
I knew what I wanted
I knew where I was going
And no one was able to tear me down
Somewhere along the way
I fell
I fell so hard…again & again
To the point where I just laid on the ground
Defeated …curled up in a fetal position
Incapable of looking in the mirror
I became a shell of myself
The person I used to be
Not everyone is the angel they seem to be
And not everyone is the devil
I guess it’s time to swallow my pride
Not that there is any left…
Loving can hurt…
But I feel not loving can hurt just as much…
To yearn for the light of deep passionate love…
Yet the sunshine never reaches…you only catch glimpses
It is the inability to be vulnerable that hurts…
To watch someone beautiful walk away…
Because you couldn’t open up your heart
But what if we did?
What if we dove so deep in love
Dove into the deepest depths of the heart & soul
Reaching that mesmerizing paradise that glimmers underwater
There we could stay for a while…
Make love all night long
Feel your sweet tender lips..
Feel your sweet gasps for air..
Feel your dainty fingers running down my legs..
i wish I felt it all….
All over again
❤
If only we could stop measuring women
By the size of her breasts, hips, or waist….
But by the goodness in her heart…
The Pure Essence of Her Soul…
& The Brilliance of Her Mind…
-C.A.T
The world is in dire need of healing
Do you think if we really knew who we were, that it would be part of a solution?
Our exterior is just a vessel in which our soul resides in…
We need to look beyond the surface…
Thoughts of a MakeupArtist….
To obey the laws of society
To accept everyone’s standard of beauty
To sign my life away with a contract
To enslave myself with a 9-5
To change myself to fit your beliefs
To settle for mediocrity
To let you steal my dreams
To believe everything the government says
To swallow every pill a doctor prescribes
To think the love of my life doesn’t exist
I refuse
As I gaze upon the constellations in the midnight sky…
I think about my destination & I start to cry…
Because it all seems so far away…
And these dreams have ceased to fade away…
And all i can think about is a love lost long ago…
While laying here on the grass feeling this warm breeze blow…
Wishing upon a star…
Just one more time
❤
I am a murderer
A killer of our dreams
Our Hopes
Our Goals
Our Aspirations
I assassinated them in the broad daylight
With more than kisses & hugs
Accustomed to your voice..that’s all I know
Accustomed to your absence
But basked in your love
Forgive me & this lustful sin
I miss you
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Have you ever felt so distant from every one else?
I’ll rather watch than be a part of the show
I see people walking & running
So wrapped up in their own lives…but aren’t we all?
I see “wise” wrinkled & youthful faces
I see the breeze flowing through black ..curly..& blonde frizzy hair
I see beautiful masculine specimens followed by pretty little pregnant “things”…
Gorgeous Eyes hidden behind lenses
I hear conversations kept secret by another language
I hear the clicking of heels & wheels rolling on the pavement
I smell smoke perishing precious lungs….
I feel a longing…
The world is so vast & diverse
I wish I could see & understand all …
Written on the back of a boarding pass…. Newark Airport
Awakening of Ann 