He sat on the couch
A man I had never seen before
He said he couldn’t understand how a human being could have the capability to torture someone so terribly
I went back to the scene
I saw him being tortured by a screwdriver
Someone just constantly drilling holes in his body
I felt the pain
It was horrendous
We went back to the interview on the couch where he then proceeded to tell me that he could never forgive his torturer
Numb
Still can’t believe it
The man I thought I loved
The man I used to adore
The man I used to look up to
The man I used to respect
Pleaded for my death
The very man I let inside me
The man I worshipped
The man I cared for
So I pulled out the knife from the kitchen drawer
Proceeded to cut myself but I was hesitant
Then I slowly slid it across my wrist
I felt adrenaline at first
Then I felt the pain
Then I thought of my family
i immediately put the knife down
I didn’t bleed at first so i payed no attention
I happened to look down at my wrist later & I was in shock
Im thinking I certainly must wear long sleeves to the family dinner
I can’t let them see what I did to myself over a man
How can you say that to someone you claim you love
The minute i heard those words
It was over for me
Within a few hours I was already in the arms of another man
He’s called over a hundred times since
I understand people say things when they are angry
But that of all things?
i understand I made a silly mistake
My heart is so numb
I can’t even take anymore
Awakening of Ann 