He looks at her
And you walk away
You’re scared aren’t you?
You just can’t admit it
But everyone knows dear
It is so evident in your face
These walls you built
These walls these people built around your heart
It must hurt
To be way up high in that icy cold castle of yours
Hiding away all your jewels and treasures
What are they if they are just for you to marvel at
And the bridge collapses…
That bridge you were trying to get him to climb over
But you just gave up..
You gave up because you’re scared
I am too
I am just like you
I walk away
Because once I couldn’t
I’d rather walk away than to be torn apart
When walking away feels harder
When I can’t imagine walking away
I no longer pray for myself
I pray for you
I pray that you learn to forgive one day
I pray one day you can let go of all that hatred in your heart
What a heavy thing to carry it must be
I pray that one day you will find happiness
I pray that you will find that from within yourself
I pray for you my dear
My old beloved
The years went by
Their youthful faces began disappearing
The zest for life began to fade
The monotony of life got to them
They slept farther apart in bed
They became strangers in the same house
The twinkle in her eyes had vanished
There were no more flowers…no more celebrations
The dinners grew quiet
It was so evident in their faces….that everything was lost
That nothing could be repaired
The passion had died down into ashes
The house became empty
The lives they created became wrapped up in themselves
Their little ones had flown from their nest
Nothing was left but silence
However time had continued…
And a word was never spoken
They stayed together out of fear
Fear of being alone
Fear of breaking the hearts of their little ones
Death had dawned upon them one day
It came without warning
It came into the dark of the night
Their lives seemed to vanish in a blink of an eye
I witnessed all of it
I saw them dying in front of me
No one understood that she was a living corpse
She hated her life, she hated her husband, she hated her kids
Yet she fulfilled her role in society
He always wanted more in life
Yet she always seemed to hold him back
Drowning his dreams into her fears
She killed his aspirations
So he was never able to reach his destination
And that was their story
So I promised myself I would never commit to anyone for the rest of my life
Afraid I would become a part of the same story
