Where the fuck are you?
Where have you been?
Bitch I’m waiting for you
Stop playing these silly games
Just meet me where I am
Why couldn’t you be the one?
I seriously thought it was you
And then you went ahead and crumbled my love for you in your hands
How could you do that to me?
I have no idea how to erase you from my memories
I still dream about you
You were my first real love
What a terrible experience that was
I have yet to fall in love like that again
Have you not found someone to put up with all your bullshit yet?
I doubt it
At least not like I did
Do you still dream about me?
I bet you curse my name every day
There’s a barrier between us
You put that there
It wasn’t me baby
What do you have left to say?
I wonder if I’ll ever happen to come across you
I wonder how you’d look at me
Would you have eyes of repentance?
Would you even look at me?
Would you say “I know I fucked up.”
I drowned all my dreams with those bottles
Laying in my bed
Looking at the ceiling
It could have been so perfect
Oh sweet baby
I’m sorry for you
Where the fuck are you?
I want to lose sight of my fingers as I comb through your hair
Lose all sense of time when I look into your eyes
To lose my ego as Im baptized in your gracious love
Oh Dear..My Sweet Dark Caramel
Bathe me in your honey over and over again
Mesmerized by your skin glistening under moonlight
Let us vanish in the depths of the woods
Howl like we own the night
You are the caramel to my macchiato
I have relinquished all my power
Just to love you
I remember the last time I had to be this strong…
Strong enough to cut someone out my life
Someone I fell so deeply in love
Yet again I was blinded by love
I will not stand for toxic relationships anymore
I wont put up with all hurtful words that burn my soul
I won’t put up with being hurt physically
I will dedicate myself to being the strongest woman I can be
It all starts with not looking back
I will never trust someone again like I once did
There are things I will never share…
I must say that I’ve never been so emotionally hurt in my life ‘
I’ve never had someone tear me apart like so , my dreams, my home, my family
And as I lay on the floor, as the tears roll down
I know I’ve had my part in this as well
At least I had a glimpse of what love can be
Being so lost in someone that you forget about all their flaws
I had dreams..dreams of bearing children
Dreams of tending to our seeds & welcoming you home into my arms
I had dreams of building an empire with you
Yet you slashed through and destroyed them with the darkness in your heart
To the point where I no longer felt comfortable around you
To point where I constantly lived on edge
Feeling so vulnerable…so violated
I can’t let anyone touch me anymore
I don’t want anyone near me anymore
I don’t even want anyone to glance in my direction
I live in fear
I live in anxiety
Something I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy
Intimacy has been taken from me…something I yearned for so long
I never walked away for being too busy…I walked away because I saw your true colors
I walked away because I constantly feared you
How could I live the rest of my life fearing someone I loved
And regardless of all the hurt in which you brought…I still wish you well
I wish you happiness, success, and so much more