I remember the last time I had to be this strong…
Strong enough to cut someone out my life
Someone I fell so deeply in love
Yet again I was blinded by love
I will not stand for toxic relationships anymore
I wont put up with all hurtful words that burn my soul
I won’t put up with being hurt physically
I will dedicate myself to being the strongest woman I can be
It all starts with not looking back
I will never trust someone again like I once did
There are things I will never share…
I must say that I’ve never been so emotionally hurt in my life ‘
I’ve never had someone tear me apart like so , my dreams, my home, my family
And as I lay on the floor, as the tears roll down
I know I’ve had my part in this as well
At least I had a glimpse of what love can be
Being so lost in someone that you forget about all their flaws
I had dreams..dreams of bearing children
Dreams of tending to our seeds & welcoming you home into my arms
I had dreams of building an empire with you
Yet you slashed through and destroyed them with the darkness in your heart
To the point where I no longer felt comfortable around you
To point where I constantly lived on edge
Feeling so vulnerable…so violated
I can’t let anyone touch me anymore
I don’t want anyone near me anymore
I don’t even want anyone to glance in my direction
I live in fear
I live in anxiety
Something I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy
Intimacy has been taken from me…something I yearned for so long
I never walked away for being too busy…I walked away because I saw your true colors
I walked away because I constantly feared you
How could I live the rest of my life fearing someone I loved
And regardless of all the hurt in which you brought…I still wish you well
I wish you happiness, success, and so much more