The years went by
Their youthful faces began disappearing
The zest for life began to fade
The monotony of life got to them
They slept farther apart in bed
They became strangers in the same house
The twinkle in her eyes had vanished
There were no more flowers…no more celebrations
The dinners grew quiet
It was so evident in their faces….that everything was lost
That nothing could be repaired
The passion had died down into ashes
The house became empty
The lives they created became wrapped up in themselves
Their little ones had flown from their nest
Nothing was left but silence
However time had continued…
And a word was never spoken
They stayed together out of fear
Fear of being alone
Fear of breaking the hearts of their little ones
Death had dawned upon them one day
It came without warning
It came into the dark of the night
Their lives seemed to vanish in a blink of an eye
I witnessed all of it
I saw them dying in front of me
No one understood that she was a living corpse
She hated her life, she hated her husband, she hated her kids
Yet she fulfilled her role in society
He always wanted more in life
Yet she always seemed to hold him back
Drowning his dreams into her fears
She killed his aspirations
So he was never able to reach his destination
And that was their story
So I promised myself I would never commit to anyone for the rest of my life
Afraid I would become a part of the same story
Loving can hurt…
But I feel not loving can hurt just as much…
To yearn for the light of deep passionate love…
Yet the sunshine never reaches…you only catch glimpses
It is the inability to be vulnerable that hurts…
To watch someone beautiful walk away…
Because you couldn’t open up your heart
But what if we did?
What if we dove so deep in love
Dove into the deepest depths of the heart & soul
Reaching that mesmerizing paradise that glimmers underwater
There we could stay for a while…
Make love all night long
Feel your sweet tender lips..
Feel your sweet gasps for air..
Feel your dainty fingers running down my legs..
i wish I felt it all….
All over again
❤
Don’t take my silence
As an insult
Don’t mistake my silence
As an attitude
Recognize my silence
As my Inability
To speak without crying
Afraid it’s too much for you to handle
Afraid to say the wrong thing
Afraid you wouldn’t understand
But in truth the saddest thing is to stay in silence
To never speak up
Never knowing if someone would have accepted you
Looking beyond your flaws
Please my dear
Do not stay in silence
I assure you
There is someone out there who understands
As unlikely as that seems
Trust me
Life goes on
That I know
Something that I believed in
But you creep into my thoughts
Trying to replace you
Erase you from my heart
Yet you linger
You come when I least expect it
As if I left the door open for you
If I could just kiss you one more time
I wonder what it would feel like
Would you give me those sparks again
Would you hold me tight
Not wanting to let go
I know I shouldn’t
Keep thinking what if
What if I let myself fall
Fall in love so madly & deeply beyond words
So deep I can’t find myself
Suffocating & drowning in your love
I wish I knew
I wish I didn’t run away
I don’t want to look back
I don’t want to live in the past
Yet you made me feel
I want to feel
I need you to rip my heart out
Just let it burn
Watch the flames engulf my soul, mind, & body
Trying to find you
Trying to find anyone like you
I’m willing to be blinded again
I’m willing to be broken
Just love me & run away with my heart
Awakening of Ann 