When most people were escaping their pain through their work

When most people would pick up the bottle

When most people would do a line & a half

When most people would bury their pain in a womans body 

I was stepping into the fire 

I laid in my bed 

For hours

For days

For weeks 

But I too was numbing out… 

I numbed myself out of joy 

I numbed myself out of life

Joy did not come & go 

Joy came & fled 

And darkness slowly overtook