Loving can hurt…
But I feel not loving can hurt just as much…
To yearn for the light of deep passionate love…
Yet the sunshine never reaches…you only catch glimpses
It is the inability to be vulnerable that hurts…
To watch someone beautiful walk away…
Because you couldn’t open up your heart
But what if we did?
What if we dove so deep in love
Dove into the deepest depths of the heart & soul
Reaching that mesmerizing paradise that glimmers underwater
There we could stay for a while…
Make love all night long
Feel your sweet tender lips..
Feel your sweet gasps for air..
Feel your dainty fingers running down my legs..
i wish I felt it all….
All over again
❤
Don’t take my silence
As an insult
Don’t mistake my silence
As an attitude
Recognize my silence
As my Inability
To speak without crying
Afraid it’s too much for you to handle
Afraid to say the wrong thing
Afraid you wouldn’t understand
But in truth the saddest thing is to stay in silence
To never speak up
Never knowing if someone would have accepted you
Looking beyond your flaws
Please my dear
Do not stay in silence
I assure you
There is someone out there who understands
As unlikely as that seems
Trust me
Life goes on
That I know
Something that I believed in
But you creep into my thoughts
Trying to replace you
Erase you from my heart
Yet you linger
You come when I least expect it
As if I left the door open for you
If I could just kiss you one more time
I wonder what it would feel like
Would you give me those sparks again
Would you hold me tight
Not wanting to let go
I know I shouldn’t
Keep thinking what if
What if I let myself fall
Fall in love so madly & deeply beyond words
So deep I can’t find myself
Suffocating & drowning in your love
I wish I knew
I wish I didn’t run away
I don’t want to look back
I don’t want to live in the past
Yet you made me feel
I want to feel
I need you to rip my heart out
Just let it burn
Watch the flames engulf my soul, mind, & body
Trying to find you
Trying to find anyone like you
I’m willing to be blinded again
I’m willing to be broken
Just love me & run away with my heart
If only we could stop measuring women
By the size of her breasts, hips, or waist….
But by the goodness in her heart…
The Pure Essence of Her Soul…
& The Brilliance of Her Mind…
-C.A.T
The world is in dire need of healing
Do you think if we really knew who we were, that it would be part of a solution?
Our exterior is just a vessel in which our soul resides in…
We need to look beyond the surface…
Thoughts of a MakeupArtist….
To obey the laws of society
To accept everyone’s standard of beauty
To sign my life away with a contract
To enslave myself with a 9-5
To change myself to fit your beliefs
To settle for mediocrity
To let you steal my dreams
To believe everything the government says
To swallow every pill a doctor prescribes
To think the love of my life doesn’t exist
I refuse
As I gaze upon the constellations in the midnight sky…
I think about my destination & I start to cry…
Because it all seems so far away…
And these dreams have ceased to fade away…
And all i can think about is a love lost long ago…
While laying here on the grass feeling this warm breeze blow…
Wishing upon a star…
Just one more time
❤
Awakening of Ann 