Loving can hurt…
But I feel not loving can hurt just as much…
To yearn for the light of deep passionate love…
Yet the sunshine never reaches…you only catch glimpses
It is the inability to be vulnerable that hurts…
To watch someone beautiful walk away…
Because you couldn’t open up your heart
But what if we did?
What if we dove so deep in love
Dove into the deepest depths of the heart & soul
Reaching that mesmerizing paradise that glimmers underwater
There we could stay for a while…
Make love all night long
Feel your sweet tender lips..
Feel your sweet gasps for air..
Feel your dainty fingers running down my legs..
i wish I felt it all….
All over again
❤
Life goes on
That I know
Something that I believed in
But you creep into my thoughts
Trying to replace you
Erase you from my heart
Yet you linger
You come when I least expect it
As if I left the door open for you
If I could just kiss you one more time
I wonder what it would feel like
Would you give me those sparks again
Would you hold me tight
Not wanting to let go
I know I shouldn’t
Keep thinking what if
What if I let myself fall
Fall in love so madly & deeply beyond words
So deep I can’t find myself
Suffocating & drowning in your love
I wish I knew
I wish I didn’t run away
I don’t want to look back
I don’t want to live in the past
Yet you made me feel
I want to feel
I need you to rip my heart out
Just let it burn
Watch the flames engulf my soul, mind, & body
Trying to find you
Trying to find anyone like you
I’m willing to be blinded again
I’m willing to be broken
Just love me & run away with my heart
If only we could stop measuring women
By the size of her breasts, hips, or waist….
But by the goodness in her heart…
The Pure Essence of Her Soul…
& The Brilliance of Her Mind…
-C.A.T
The world is in dire need of healing
Do you think if we really knew who we were, that it would be part of a solution?
Our exterior is just a vessel in which our soul resides in…
We need to look beyond the surface…
Thoughts of a MakeupArtist….
To obey the laws of society
To accept everyone’s standard of beauty
To sign my life away with a contract
To enslave myself with a 9-5
To change myself to fit your beliefs
To settle for mediocrity
To let you steal my dreams
To believe everything the government says
To swallow every pill a doctor prescribes
To think the love of my life doesn’t exist
I refuse
I am a murderer
A killer of our dreams
Our Hopes
Our Goals
Our Aspirations
I assassinated them in the broad daylight
With more than kisses & hugs
Accustomed to your voice..that’s all I know
Accustomed to your absence
But basked in your love
Forgive me & this lustful sin
I miss you
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Have you ever felt so distant from every one else?
I’ll rather watch than be a part of the show
I see people walking & running
So wrapped up in their own lives…but aren’t we all?
I see “wise” wrinkled & youthful faces
I see the breeze flowing through black ..curly..& blonde frizzy hair
I see beautiful masculine specimens followed by pretty little pregnant “things”…
Gorgeous Eyes hidden behind lenses
I hear conversations kept secret by another language
I hear the clicking of heels & wheels rolling on the pavement
I smell smoke perishing precious lungs….
I feel a longing…
The world is so vast & diverse
I wish I could see & understand all …
Written on the back of a boarding pass…. Newark Airport
Glowing Gorgeous Green Eyes
Illuminating My Soul
Giving Life to My Emotions
Giving me the Greatest Hope for Love
Butterflies of Excitement
Random Smiles
Dancing through the streets in the Pouring Rain ….
Glowing Gorgeous Green Eyes
Give me these feelings ….
One More Time
The wind is blowing..
It’s whistling & howling
I can hear the crinkle of colorful leaves as I walk
I can hear your voice in the wind
I can almost smell your sweet perfume lingering somewhere in the air
Yet I can’t find you
It’s getting cold…
And I miss you
All I can think about is your sweet caresses
All I want is to kiss you again
It’s getting colder…
I need you here
Sweet Angel
Come back to me before winter comes…
Awakening of Ann 